my weekend

well the weekend has been here and gone, i went away to a party over the weekend.
i had my doubts about attending aparty since i am now no longer collard, and having never played with any one besides Him and One other Female Dom, but still He was there watching. i am proud of my self for going, i didnt let Him showing up on Friday bother me, i didnt cancel plans and chicken out, i need to keep moving forward because He may never change, and even if he did how can i trust him again ? this is something we talked about on friday, he made a promise to call this week i said that was alright he could, part of me says he never will bother the other not quite sure i want to talk to him again already. because i need to keep building my self esteem again, and if he threatens that continueing they speaking with him will have to stop all together, i can not and will not go backwards right now.