Leaving on a Ford Focus

leaving in a couple hours , car is packed and i am ready to get on the road

Back and Forth

I feel like I have been going back and forth on wether You have changed at all, I see that i need to put more distance between us because its still leaving me hurt and confused when I know the need to stay away is there.
In about 48 hours I am leaving to start a 12 hour trip to Cape Breton to go home. A friend K is comming with me, so at least i wont be driving all alone. The reason I am going, I will not stay home an cry alone over the last couple christmases we have I am going to Make new memories with my family and put thoes people a the front of my mind rather then think about what we did have before.

I am still trying to heal the hurt You keep inflicting on my emotions which is why i need to step away even more, maybe its not posible to be friends with an x ? i dont know as much as i want to I DONT WANT TO BE WITH YOU ANY MORE, which is this great big rock lifted off my heart that i can say that now and not want to cry thinking about you , i can do it i can move on with my life.

ill update from the road

MIA

i have been staying away mainly because i thought that getting angry on here was hurting me, and i though i was starting to move past the damage that you did to me. You keep playing games back an forth so i have taken the step not to speak with you at all, i have tried going out on a date ill be it vanilla as it was i am making my self leave the house making my self do things i am leaving for cape breton in two days to visit my family and friends , i need to stay away from you while your here