Relaxation

What is the perfect thing to do when your day has been a mess from start to finish ?
One of thoes days where you have to remind your self that you love
Your job that the world is not ending and that the next day wont be the same?

So my choices tonight were to go watch a movie with a friend, He may not feel up to it
So i am planning some alts to take away the stress

Options
Mutilate Horrids in the game that took me 5 hours to install last night &
4 hours to fix this morning YEAH for OBLIVION
Kill Things in Guild Wars
Kill Things in WoW (bought a trial version)
Watch the Normal AMC ( see if Ryan and Annie are gonna raise there Daughter together)

Or As Your writing this post your ass of and ex calls your (while your still at work) so you end up making the perfect ending to the day and crying for the first time since he called the last time.

So i have made the choice that all my contacts need to change, though i may always love you, i am not in love with you, i dont like the person you are when you treat me like this. You know You wont change, and its not my place to ask you too, So i will change how i let you in to my life , which will be not at all. Though i can not change my number at work maybe this is why every time you have contacted me since i left has been at work.

Now back from the rant that took over my post.

Its one of thoes night i just want to veg, just want to veg and do anything mindless

The Capebretoner

The Capebretoner

For those of you who are Cape Bretoners,
and for those who wish they were,these are things
we take for granted, for those of
you who aren't, a little education is
helpful if you are privileged to ever visit there.

I'm not a coal miner or a fisherman.
I don't know John MacDonald, but I'm sure if you
knew his father's name,I might.
The old man's on pogey, not "unemployment insurance".
I speak Cape Bretonese, not English or French.
Unless I'm from Cheticamp.
I say "yous" instead of "you"
When referring to more than one person.
Our closest thing to a luxury cruise is the Englishtown ferry.
I can proudly sing every word to "The Island".

It's arsehole, not asshole.
I'm not a baraco, unless I'm from Louisdale.
Ashley MacIssac was fine until he went to Toronto.
Bet up" is the past tense of "beat".
Once you're over the hill you have to go to the bingo.
Anyone "west of the causeway" is a mainlander.
A "puck" means a really hard punch or hit,
not just something you use to play hockey.
Nothing good ever comes from the phrase "that one".
I can ask a complete stranger if "a fella could saves me a puff".

My cousin is my "cousint".
Buddy dere don't know his arse from his elbow.
You "bift" something, not throw it.
Any conversation can start with "how's she goin b'y".
Moonshine, if drunk right, will give you the shits.
It's a "point" of rum, not a "pint".
The "Mull River Shuffle" isn't a card game.
A good meal is a "scoff".
I don't laugh really hard at something, I "roar" at it.
I don't pronounce the "H" at the end of"Keith's".
Don't pronounce "H" at all do I.

Cape Breton is an island off Nova Scotia.
The first nation of tarbish and fiddle music,
And the best part of North America.

The Island - Aselin Debison

"The Island"

Over an ocean and over a sea
Beyond these great waters, oh what do I see?
I see the great mountains
Climb from the coastline
The hills of Cape Breton, this new home of mine
Oh they come from the countries all over the world
To hack at the forest, to plow the land down
Fishermen, farmers and sailors all come
To clear for the future this pioneer ground

[CHORUS]
We are an island, a rock in a stream
We are a people as proud as there's been
In soft summer breeze or in wild winter winds
The home of our hearts, Cape Breton

Over the rooftops and over the trees
Within these new townships, oh what do I see?
I see the black pitheads, the coal-wheels are turning
The smokestacks are belching and the blast furnace burning
Oh the sweat on the back is no joy to behold
In the heat of the steel plant or mining the coal
And the foreign-owned companies
Force us to fight
For our survival and for our rights

[CHORUS]

Over the highways and over the roads
Over the causeway, stories are told
They tell of the coming and the going away
The cities of America draw me away
Ah the companies come, the companies go
And the ways of the world we may never know
We'll follow the footsteps of those on their way
And we'll ask for the right to leave or to stay

[CHORUS]

sentimental

So i like some people find sentimental feelings in most lyrics or songs so I thought that listing a song of the week might help seeing that when I started this blog I would just write random thoughts, just enough to keep me going from speaking to the X, Enough to keep me focused enough at work to stay at work and not break down and cry while sitting at my desk fixing some ones net. Now my self am i over it all no, but i am getting some place cause it doesn't hurt like it did.

So maybe this just turns in a compliment of songs that mean things to me or inspire me in some way or just make me think.

New Blogger

Well i made the switch over to the new Google accounts blogger system will see how this all works now i guess...

On update note i know that this isn't interesting writing , its just for me to write things out when i am doubting the choice of leaving the person who hurt me , its about learning to love my self again and understanding that i do count, my opions count my needs wants dreams everything , matter , they shouldn't be pushed aside , that being said compromise is needed in life but, when just one person is doing that its not fair nor is it healthy.

Caper4Always

Good morning thank you for calling please leave .....

Answering the phone every day , i have started not to want to answer my phone at home. This must be comman for other people who answer the phone day in day out at least 100 times a day. Maybe not wanting to talk on the phone is helping me move on , I have not Cried once in two weeks this is a record as of late. There are a couple reasons why i think
A) I have recently been trying to help a friend whos going threw the same type of reatltionship all be it not as long as mine was.
B) I am just learning to move on! Not letting the Hurtful things you say when you contact me get to me!

As a human being we all deserve to have pride in our selfs what we can do! no one has the right to tell you that you are worthless!

Vacation Came Vacation Went

Back to the grind for over a week.
Vacation was good i think it was good for me. He was around when i got back. He acts as if we are still together when he wants or needs something but as soon as something comes up he reminds me just how little i mean. So i took some steps to put more distance between us i didnt call for the hole time i was gone , thats a big deal for being me , to go from calling every day to not calling in over a month. and he is gone back now and i havent called either.

On other notes i have a wonderful vation i spent time with family and friends and just had time to do nothing at some points too, i needed that time to my self.
My motherbord went on sunday so i have orderd a new computer ill spend the next 3 months working OT to pay for it but its all good. I think its time i start trying to date i mean really give it a try and keep staying away from Him . i may always care about him but its a toxic relationship. and i cant settle for less then what i deserve rigth ?

who knows what the time will bring


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