Leaps and Bounds....

Leaps and Bounds not really just a steady walk up hill.

As I lay in bed last night not being able to sleep, My thoughts of course were running around, but i just stopped to smile! Why you might ask ? I stopped to smile because I am doing this on my own. I have organized my life, i have made plans for things i want and when some one contacts me wants to maybe see if something is there, i haven't said no , but i haven't had a problem just letting them know when you aren't for me, I am not settling i am not trying to make some one else happy first. Being selfish ? No i don't think so anymore, i just not going to put my self second in everything , i ll compromise on somethings others i am not going to. My friends who ready this know how much of a big deal this is.
C4A has always put others first
always aiming to please and gain some ones approval. Is it sad that it has taken me this long ? I mean i have a classic history of Alcoholic father, Abusive brother, Boyfriends.
But as i lay there last night , i though about the fact that i have peace in my life 90 percent of the time( if some one would forget my number it would be better) but i am on the right path, A job i love friends that i care about ,