late night phone calls

As i lay me down to sleep i pray the .... i just pray to get to sleep!,
for the last 4 nights i have had problems sleeping just sit there and toss and turn if i can even slow down long enough to go to bed. issue causing this ? stress and a wondeful first cavity! who gets a first cavity at the age of 25 ? ME , and i love my dentist honestly she is a doll , she went to school with my cousing so i feel comfortable with her but she has went away on vacation leaving me for a week with nothing to do but pray for it to stop hurting and go threw 2 tubes of orgel a day. So it was great when by 10 45 last night i had fallen asleep. And then what happens, The x calls, i fumbled for the phone and said hello, i was some what ticked when i heard the voice on the other end and he started with i am sorry did i wake you , well of course when in the 4 years have you knowen me do i stay awake past 10 30 wheni have to be up at 6 am. Another applogies and you say youll let me go , that you were just calling to say hi , hi is a code work and the time of day your calling you either A need money or B are worried about something, i have made it clear there will be no money given to you again , that you need to learn to do things on your own , and if your calling me for support its either something with work or your mother. Neither of which are my concerns any more. I tell my self this because being sucked in to Your life is like entering the black hole of depression , where no one smiles no one laughs all they do is cry. You dont have to tell me whats wrong i know by the tone if your voice, i look at the clock its almost 11 , i tell you Hey Your interview will go fine, just take a breath and get back to studing for your exit exams, what have i just done? underminded all the work i have been doing for my self , because when no one is there, for you i stepped up to the plate , so that you could be re asured, i just shake my head as i crawl back in bed, i can beat my self up over doing something for you or i can just say smile and keep moving on , not letting you affect how i feel. i choose the later, i just chalk it out to helping any of my other friends, no matter what happend between us i do which you happiness, but i need for you to understand that the further dosnt hold me and you together any more, that i am happy building alife of my own , and that there is some one i am intrested in , maybe there i snothing there with him , maybe he will only end up being a friend, as well, but i cant keep being the person you turn to its not fair to my self, or to any one i want to presue a relationship, i have learned to move towards another path , you need to do the same